Facing Darkness to See Light

Between sunset and night, rain and light photograph by John Canan

Quiet friend who has come so far,

feel how your breathing makes more space around you.

Let this darkness be a bell tower

and you the bell. As you ring,

– Rilke “Let The Darkness Be A Bell Tower”

For most of my life, I have tried to engage in an external exchange to create internal acceptance.  Somewhere along the way I chose to base my self-acceptance on outside feedback.  

Unlike chasing a rainbow to find your pot of gold, where you continually look up as you go, in my process I looked down, only occasionally glancing up.  It has been futile.  Acceptance, like forgiveness must come first as an intentional action within.  During those times that I lack evidence of worth in my mind it is especially important that then, that I preserve in faith 

Facing Darkness – Seeing Light

My faults, they have been like etchings on the panes of my mind

Forever hailing into the distance – some future promise, that I may hitch to

That then my days are comforted, when my light casts my shadows beyond;

Only to awaken amidst the mud and muck – midway journey

To Discover that shadow is the Faithful companion of light.

– John Canan