Quiet friend who has come so far,
feel how your breathing makes more space around you.
Let this darkness be a bell tower
and you the bell. As you ring,
– Rilke “Let The Darkness Be A Bell Tower”
For most of my life, I have tried to engage in an external exchange to create internal acceptance. Somewhere along the way I chose to base my self-acceptance on outside feedback.
Unlike chasing a rainbow to find your pot of gold, where you continually look up as you go, in my process I looked down, only occasionally glancing up. It has been futile. Acceptance, like forgiveness must come first as an intentional action within. During those times that I lack evidence of worth in my mind it is especially important that then, that I preserve in faith
Facing Darkness – Seeing Light
My faults, they have been like etchings on the panes of my mind
Forever hailing into the distance – some future promise, that I may hitch to
That then my days are comforted, when my light casts my shadows beyond;
Only to awaken amidst the mud and muck – midway journey
To Discover that shadow is the Faithful companion of light.
– John Canan